Who is there, my friend, can climb to the sky?
Only the gods dwell forever in sunlight.
As for man, his days are numbered,
whatever he may do, it is but wind.
- from The Epic of Gilgamesh
Hello... Name's Paolo, of Filipino heritage, and a high school junior at Colegio San Agustin, Makati.
This is the little nook where my thoughts transform from bits to bytes. This site is an output for my emotions, and most often anecdotes about my ceaseless mishaps and rants. This is me, the guy who looks at life through the lens; minding only the film's negative, in my 1984. To oblivion and beyond then, mortals.
I've survived the 2 months with 4D... Thank God. So far, I haven't failed anything due to the torture Sir Padlan has been giving us in Physics, making us remember the... ahem... good ol' Geom days. And Math... HAHA. I haven't failed a single test. I couldn't believe myself. I'm not bragging... It's just that I'm used to flunking them... XD I used to love Trigonometry... Until I found myself confused on the very first discussion. The stuff I know got mixed up.
I've been appointed as Computer Graphics editor for the Yearbook '08 and Layout editor for the Insights... Woo. No pressure. I'm calm. Already 2 all-nighters since the beginning of the year. I feel like I've been neglecting my GenArts duties stuff, and in the process... I hope not. 'Cos I know He really understands... God...
So many crossroads... Gah...
The ACET is coming up...
OMG.
I am seriously eyeing on Hillsong International Leadership College... Woot.
I'll be taking 3 entrance exams. Less load off the pockets and the mind, then...
Phew.
Relax, Paolo, relax.
Don't you just hate people who blog like this?
Really insubstantial. Tsktsk.
Get me a Wobbuffet. Now.
Gosh. Why can't I stop worrying when I'm not supposed to worry?
I haven't updated in a very long time, and I totally neglected doing that entry on summer camp.
And the thing I've been dreading... My friends who have connections in school tell me I've been put in the pilot class. They have Computer as their elective (not bad, since it'll be tackling Flash... Heehee.) Even though I really want to decline, something's telling me not to decline. Oh God.
So camp's over, but I'm too lazy right now to do a chronicle of what have transpired over those 4 exhilarating days. I'll do it probably on Thursday, or later at night.
The Enemy is in this world to steal you of what you thought you can never achieve in this world, but HE has came that we may have and enjoy LIFE and have it in abundance to the full, till it overflows. I believe that we came to the camp to see God, to come before God, and to conquer with God with a shout of triumph so loud.
It's the summer already, yet it seems that worrying is still the trend when the past schoolyear has ended. I'm torn between three choices of what to do this summer.
It's either:
- to devote time to doing stuff for my ministry at JG, GenArts.
- to earn money in a summer job teaching Chemistry, Geometry or Trigonometry in advance.
- to take summer training for this year's ACP with the goal to only be a Flight Leader.
Father God, help me. X(
And one more thing:
Will I decline if ever I'm qualified for the pilot class? I don't even think 92.4 as a final grade is good enough to qualify me, so... Good. Plus, I don't even want to take NatSci as my elective.
With all the academic and psychological turmoil going on, I could hardly find time to just lash out my thoughts and rants here. Junior year's about to end, and in a couple of months, I'd be applying for colleges. Dude, it does seem a lot like yesterday when I first entered the high school gates. I passed freshman year, discovered my potential in sophomore year, and used it this year. The best things have happened this school year and it's been way supernatural and whoa... On the other hand, there was chaos going on recently; it has however died down a bit. I could've broken down a long time ago if it weren't for the awesome Dad in heaven above I have. In Him, I found peace which I used to think I wouldn't have.
And for now, I guess it's time to speak out after what seemed to be ignorance and silence...
Who said that being a Christian is convenient? And that's Christian, not in the sense of religion (I hate it when religion becomes a barrier), but as someone who has God in his life... There are people who welcome you, but there are some who doesn't welcome change. You'll get rejected, and you get all the blame for the changes going on when you, in fact, have not sinned. I have never imposed change. Where in the Bible does it say that it's wrong to come and join (with permission asked...) the people you go to church with every Saturday? But I'm not gonna use the Word to condemn. And neither will I hold any grudges. I have forgiven you people long ago and I still love you guys... I'll just do what I feel is best and just stay within His will. I continue to pray.
7 school days left. And if I confirm that I'll be exempted in 5 subjects, then it'll be like 4 days left. I'm tired. However, it is surprising that I just realized that I love my section this year. There were differences from last year; however, we were civilized back then... XD But I still love these guys. Oh well. Camp's gonna be in a month, and my mum's coming home in 2 weeks. Summer this year could possibly have a lot in store for me.
Until the next time I find time. 'Night, world. 'Night, Lord.
BTW... I know that there are a few who read my blog, but I need comments and suggestions on the image below. It's a background for Jesus Generation that I did for the ministry I'm about to join...
